Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year My Friends

I am in awe of the flight of time. Here I sit again wishing good things to you for the new year. It blows my mind that it is already time to do it again. Even though I look to the future more than I look to the past, waking up and finding a whole year has frittered away makes me uncomfortable. I don't want the passage of time to accelerate. Aw, yeah, it's inevitable but that doesn't make me embrace it. In fact, I am fighting a feeling of suffocation with the loss of time. Sort of like one might feel when in a submerged car and water starting to rise in the cab. Guess it's time to find some words to comfort me and help me deal with this angst.

On a lighter note, there are many things to look towards in this coming year.
If everything goes as planned, my daughter will graduate from high school. I watched a PBS show last night on teen girls and growing up. One of the girls profiled was a Mexican American who graduated high school with honors and was on the road to college. It made me ball just watching her commencement so I believe I might have to medicate so I don't lose it a E's graduation. And she will be moving on to college which I am so excited for her experience.

My son will graduate eighth grade and have a commencement program which isn't as serious as the seniors but still be pretty emotional. He is going to jazzed about being out of the clutches of the middle school principal and on to the more forgiving atmosphere of high school. (heehee, that's funny to say- that high school is easier than middle school but I mean only the setting is more relaxed, the work definitely isn't). I think he will bloom even more than this year.

The band will travel to New York City to perform and visit for a few days in May. I suppose Ill be choosing to stay behind and fund E's wisdom tooth extraction instead of hitting NYC with them. I know the kids are looking forward to the awesome trip.

I will get to go to Michigan for the 4th of July trip. That makes me happy just thinking about being on the pontoon with a fishing pole in my hands.

What are things you are looking towards in the coming year?

Happy New Year with the best wishes I can possible send you all.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

We ate, drank and slept far to often. As usual, we had a blast.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Greeny is out of the building.
Heading to my mom's for our festivities.
Merry Christmas to all.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Please Pass the Clarity

Pondering the meaning of some situations Im involved in.

Why is it so easy to see things so straight when it comes to other people's lives and events but for my own, it is like looking through muddy water? I guess letting my intuition help would be the best. I like things clearly stated and if it's not, I read things in that may or may not be intended. I have a big imagination too but I do manage not to fly off the handle with my assumptions in too wild a way most instants.
This is all surrounding the dating game, btw. I have never been this nervous! When I decided to jiggle the bait again, I felt pretty confident in my self and reasons for beginning again. One person and Im a basket case. Most well-adjusted people would say to this situation-" Okay, things are looking kinda hinky so this isn't going to work between us" and it's dropped. Onward and upward. But I see potential, allowing myself to respond with my whole person to this man, I find myself intrigued and attracted to the whole package.
So answer me this. When do you shut off the heart and go with just what the head says?

Btw, Im not desperate. Ive been alone for a long while and feel fine about spending more time that way.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Hautedog Couture

My old wool camping sweater becomes -viola`! a cold dog's outerwear. Harriet seemed to feel very happy in her new sleek body sock.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Begin and begin again and so on and so on. Decipher, consider, ponder words, look for warning signs but above all, be myself.
Exhausting, nerve wracking, often fun.
The ball is his court now.

Saturday, December 05, 2009

Green fingers are the extension of a verdant heart -Russell Page.

I found that while searching for some plant culture info on a beautiful landscaping site. I thought about my green fingers and my verdant heart except verdant also means 'inexperienced' 'unsophisticated'.
I am not completely inexperienced but I may have a few sophistication issues. I've got the "naive" part licked at least.
I prefer 'lush' , 'flourishing' or 'fresh'. Yeah, lets go with that.

The kids march in our Christmas parade tonight. I like the evening Christmas parades since it actually can stamp out my bah- humbug mood that generally prevails during Christmas.

After that....a date.