Just remembering some good comment info from a previous post.
Remember nataS? He is pretty quiet these days...
Life's rules according to nataS?
1. Life is difficult.
2. Perception is reality.
3. Change is the toughest thing a human being can do.
4. You can never change another human being; you can only change yourself. Once you change, they change, but you cannot change them.
5. I am responsible for everything I do and say. I am not responsible for your response.
6. The future and the past are seldom as good or as bad as we anticipate or remember.
7. Nobody has a squeaky-clean psyche.
8. The only thing that lasts forever is...Now.
I have avoided posts with much content in the past several months. I have really internalized, keeping things quiet and toned down even with conversations with my friends. It feels unhealthy. I feel unhealthy -like I have a growing blob of crud in my heart and head. How is that for imagery? That grossed even me out.
What does one do when one feels the weight of everything and everyone and all one's own mistakes? When one cannot lift their mood or change their outlook or find promise in a day? When one's constant whining about the same thing can drive that one insane not to mention the listeners. When one feels like one's spirit is taking a big hit from the universe...
Remember nataS? He is pretty quiet these days...
Life's rules according to nataS?
1. Life is difficult.
2. Perception is reality.
3. Change is the toughest thing a human being can do.
4. You can never change another human being; you can only change yourself. Once you change, they change, but you cannot change them.
5. I am responsible for everything I do and say. I am not responsible for your response.
6. The future and the past are seldom as good or as bad as we anticipate or remember.
7. Nobody has a squeaky-clean psyche.
8. The only thing that lasts forever is...Now.
I have avoided posts with much content in the past several months. I have really internalized, keeping things quiet and toned down even with conversations with my friends. It feels unhealthy. I feel unhealthy -like I have a growing blob of crud in my heart and head. How is that for imagery? That grossed even me out.
What does one do when one feels the weight of everything and everyone and all one's own mistakes? When one cannot lift their mood or change their outlook or find promise in a day? When one's constant whining about the same thing can drive that one insane not to mention the listeners. When one feels like one's spirit is taking a big hit from the universe...
posted by Unknown at 9:30 AM
10 Comments:
Well, you've read enough of my bitching to earn yourself a reader through thick and thin.
Unload to your heart's content. I'll consider it an honor to be your friend in that way.
first thing is to not keep it in. Let it go...and like iamnot, you have listened to all my constant complaining...and I am all ears to yours.
Let loose, whether here or on paper or in a therapist's office...you will feel much better.
*hug*
i have found that even if i write it out on my blog and don't hit publish but save it as a draft i feel better about things because i purged my real feelings.
at times i will hit publish, but i'll later go back and hit save as draft just because i worry who might read it.
try that-it'll make ya feel better i'm sure.
my mom use to tell me, "you can't save the world kimmy, you can only save yourself". i try to remember that alot when i question a lot of things.
It's hard when you feel that way. I think everyone can relate, though, because we've all felt that way from time to time. Hopefully writing helps at least somewhat.
On a positive note, I have found a lot of peace in reading the book "The Power of Intention" by Dr. Wayne Dyer. After reading that book, I definitely have many more good days than bad days.
Also, take care of yourself and indulge once-in-a-while in whatever you love--perhaps a warm bath and a glass of wine--or a cosmopolitan? *smiles*
Gee whiz... you're sounding more like me every day. It's hard for me to offer advice, because I don't know how to lift myself from those moods. Often it's just something simple, some little pleasure that suddenly changes my mood. The problem is it can vary each time. Right now, my life is not how I want it to be (for one very big particular reason) and there is nothing I can do or change to make me feel better. But I know that something, one day, will break this mood for a while and things will seem brighter. The most trite advice you can receive is "Hang in there, it'll get better" but for me that seems to be what I tend to do. We're all on here ready to listen, you know that of course...
I can so relate to this ... I write it out in my journal because the act of putting pen to paper still soothes me. (probably because I'm old and the computer keyboard often reminds me of forced typing lessons in grades 9 & 10.)
This is why I garden - grow flowers that give my heart at least a bit of respite. It's really one of the few places that lets me remember many of the things in your post's list.
Just remember you're not alone as the other commenters have said. It helps sometimes to know that.
The things that help when I feel full of crud are sleep, exercise, and a good cry. Then I need someone who can just listen to me without judging and without trying to solve my problems and fix it. The last item is hardest to find. Talking or writing it all out helps to put things in perspective. You are the only one who knows what you need to do. We will listen and not judge if you write it out here. The internet is such a nice private place. Or find a friend to listen. Sleep, eat, exercise and vent.
#2 and #6 are what I really zeroed in on.
If perception is reality though, doesn't that take credence away from #6?
My spirit is the problem. I'm just not as filled up with happiness or contentment as I feel I should be. Disconnection in a big way is what I feel although there are those who would disagree with that idea.
I would like to talk to someone who could lead me through a discussion on what I am honestly feeling and what it means. Yes, a psychologist's couch might be the answer.
I've tried medication and it sort of got me nowhere because I never really calmed down enough to get to the bottom of my troubles.... I guess I'm just a bit mixed up with life. And is the case when I was young, I don't have the knowledge of how to ask the right questions for insight. And on top of that, I don't read enough self-help books to look for answers.
Mind you all, there is not one event that is giving me this weight and I don't feel like Im going to self-destruct.
Dear Greeny,
Thanks for giving me a plug. Just so you know, I struggle with many of the same issues as you...I never can isolate just one cause or event. I believe my struggles are related to growing older and having retrospect and introspect play havoc.
I don't feel as though I will self destruct but I find myself becoming increasingly frustrated over the baffoonery, lunacy, stupidity, and complete ignorance of society...it probably doesn't help that I'm locked in an airplane 8-10 times per week.
I could go on forever but I will not.
You are not alone...perhaps it is our generation? Just a question, do you ever feel lost?
Signed,
Your Dark Angel
nataS,
You're welcome. Anything for you.
I assumed I wasn't the only one.
Havoc, I know about.
My thought was too much time for deep thinking can be detrimental- heavy on the "mental".
I wouldn't let myself go on and on either.
Lost is the word I typed before I chose disconnection.
I feel better...
You try now.
signed,
Your minion
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